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Wondering?

June 11, 2010 on 1:43 am | In Blog | No Comments

It’s been a turbulent time the past month or so. Mostly I’ve been working a lot, but my mood has suffered a lot from not feeling needed or that I could accomplish something on my own.

Well I did start on a project – a portal for furries here in DK. The idea was to get a place where people could put up links and articles that were open to everyone online and thereby opening a door to an otherwise closed world that the furry community has been known to have, especially here in DK. While the idea was kept to myself, some in the furry community learned of it and started to want to push things in their directions or even close things down. It got me so mad and depressed that I gave up the project in anger. I must admit that some of the old feelings from when I left as an admin at DK-Furs, came to the surface again. I just don’t think the furry community here is willing to be as relaxed and understanding as I am use to from prior experiences in the US. Oh well, I guess the fractions will have to sort things out themselves. I’ve lost the will to help.

Another thing that’s been bothering me is our lovely garden. No the garden is really nice and things are looking better and better for every week that passes, no my problem is more the fact that it’s not me doing most of the work there, but my wife and a friend of ours… Having bad eyesight means that I can’t really see the difference between weeds and things we want to keep in the garden. It bothers me a LOT since I feel left out and also like I am forcing everyone ells to do the hard work, making me look lazy. It really has been bugging me…

The past week has been the worst of the lot, with just feeling really down and worthless, but I am starting to feel better again, as I have time to gather my thoughts and actually put some perspective in to them. Logic is good when you can make yourself believe it.

Well after all that, I just need to find another project to do. Wonder what it should be… Any ideas?